I wanted to talk about my insecurities and how I am trying to work on feeling comfortable in my own skin!
It’s been a struggle as long as I can remember. I’m the type of person that cares what people think of me and feels like I’m constantly being talked about behind my back. People tell me it’s all in my head, but how can I get these thoughts to leave entirely? Looking back when I was a senior in high school, I should have never complained about my body because it was rockin! I had a flat stomach, but was curvy at the same time. The pic below proves it.
After being through some stressful times over the years and adding on some “happy” weight, I am not happy with the way I am now. I try to avoid seeing people I haven’t seen in a while because I’m scared of what they would say about me. It’s sad, I know! I’ve been on and off for about 4 years now trying different diets and workouts, but they never last. I get bored with them easily and lose motivation after a while. Being a type 1 diabetic also makes it hard because my body doesn’t work the way others do when it comes to dieting so that can be frustrating. I really want to try my hardest to get to my goal! I see so many women that have worked hard at their goals and continue to make their bodies strong!
I recently got married and even though I felt beautiful and comfortable the day of, I wish I was more thinner. We go on our honeymoon next week and just the thought of bathing suits gives me anxiety. The last 5 months, I have been doing Body Boss workouts which are HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) 3 days a week. At first, I recognized a difference and even lost a few pounds. When Christmas came around, I gained them all back. I am going to take a 6 week training boot camp where I will work with other women who have the same goals as me. I am sure it will be very uplifting and who knows, maybe I’ll meet some new friends during the process! This camp also includes some self defense lessons that I’m excited to learn! I am starting on June 11th and will tell ya’ll all about it! Wish me luck and if you know of anyone that I can follow their blog on weight loss, let me know!
I GOT THIS!